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I'm just kind of ambling along. Trying to heal my emotions and overwhelming sadness of not being accepted to vet school this year (yeah that happened). Coping, how does one do that?

Anyway. Weird thing happened last night. I'm lying in bed and all the sudden the muscles of my lower abdomen start to contract. I think it might be my period, but it's a sharp, biting pain not a dull, aching pain. I figure it will pass; over the next minute or so it becomes unbearable. I can usually withstand pain fairly well, however this drives me from my bed thinking only of relief from this terrible overwhelming contracting sensation. I climb down from my bunk, going quite slowly because my muscles protest my thighs moving distally from my torso. I eventually get to my medicine cabinet and take some painkillers. At this point, new symptoms emerge. I am instantly nauseous like I haven't been since the last time I got drunk beyond good reason. I grab my trash can and sink to the floor. It's at this point that I seriously consider calling the paramedics. I don't have a clue what is wrong with me; it assaulted me so suddenly and now I'm incapacitated on the floor in a fevered sweat, leaning over a trash bin. I consider the possibility that I might be dying. I feel so terrible, I'm sweeping my suddenly sweaty bangs out of my face. I'm trying to extent my legs so I can stand, only to be repaid with more stabbing pain.

Then, the nausea disappears. The pain lessens to manageable levels. The fever is gone. All I feel is sweaty and cold. My lower abdomen is still tight and not favoring movement, but it lets me get up and get back into bed with minimal interference. I huddle under my covers and quickly fall back asleep.

I have no idea what that episode was all about. It only lasted about 5-10 minutes at most. I don't know what caused it and it hasn't reoccurred. So now I'm just left wondering. I took two Tylenol and a multivitamin a few hours ago. I don't know if that'll do anything, but it can't hurt.

Date: 2012-01-12 04:54 am (UTC)
ichthyes: (Gryffindor)
From: [personal profile] ichthyes
Maybe you should take a quick trip to the doctor's anyway, just to get a check up? Maybe wait a few days and see if anything happens again. I had a similar attack recently, though not as bad. But I got stomach cramps so bad that I couldn't stand, or move at all really. I almost collapsed in the shower. Thought they were the worst menstrual cramps I've ever had, but then I didn't have my period. So I don't know...

As for vet school, I know what I am about to say is NOT easy to do, but you have to see the positive side. I can tell you I know what it feels like to be rejected by a school program that you really wanted to get in to, and having been through that I can also tell you... if you're not ready, or they don't think you're ready, that's okay. You have to accept the situation, and let it be okay. When it is the right time you'll get in and it will feel like a much bigger accomplishment after you've had to wait and work more for it.

Take the time in between to do a few things just for yourself and study more, or if you're a huge workaholic than just prep super hard. The only thing you CAN'T do is berate yourself for not getting in. Just keep doing awesome things and try again!

Sorry if I sound like too much of a cheerleader, because trust me I do understand it will take a while not to feel sad about the situation... but it will turn out okay. Just give it time.

Date: 2012-01-14 07:18 pm (UTC)
sharptooth: ([pkmn] - Team Rocket)
From: [personal profile] sharptooth
I heard about the vet school thing on twitter, and haven't said anything because I wanted to console you but GAH, so hard over text. Especially because I was so shocked myself! Like, that's two straight-A high GPA students I know of who didn't get in, what gives??? LIKE, ARE THEY TESTING YOU? Maybe the secret ingredient is like, five years of school. I have no idea.

I was I do care, though, and got you a li'l something from MAGfest which I think you'll like :3 I wish it was a signature but HOLY HELL I could not find those guys until the last day when we were leaving, and everyone looked completely exhausted and draped over their luggage. It would have been kinda awkward to come up like HEY SLEEPY HEADS RISE AND SHINE, I NEED A SIGNATURE ASAP!

But seriously? Echoing what Pook said. It is okay. Undoubtedly upsetting, but please, please don't be hard on yourself for it. You still worked hard and still did great and that DOES amount to a lot, even if the outcome was not what you hoped for. On the bright side, when you apply next year you'll have a lot more experience under your belt.



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